What a fool!

I held off doing an end of year post. It was going to be a positive one. His mother had asked me last night how things were between us and I said perfect. What a fool. He got drunk last night. Only to be expected on New Years Eve. He seemed a bit worse for it this morning but about an hour ago he seemed really really drunk. I asked him nicely had he had a drink. No.  I asked him again several times have you had a drink, I'll not be mad. Tell me the truth. I know his patented cure is another drink but he reassured me no. About seven times he said no. I was in the kitchen getting the little one a drink when I suddenly remembered the mixed bottle of gin and tonic left over from our holiday. Must have been about half a bottle of gin in it. Well it was missing from the fridge. I checked the recycling and there is the empty bottle. I just asked the question again, he must have known I knew as he said yes.  How many times did you lie to me? So what or some such was his reply. So what it's over. How can I live with someone who cannot tell the truth. When he says he loves me and just wants to make me happy which he has said too many times to count this morning, I can only assume it's all lies. When he says he hasn't been talking to the kinky shoe sardine woman I can only assume it is all lies. If he lies about something as stupid as whether or not he has had a drink then he is most certainly going to lie about other women and other stuff. What a shit way to start the year. And to top it all I am now up to my eyes in debt having had to keep two homes for 6 months of last year, pay for my 40th birthday trip to Rome from him and the holiday to Spain he wanted and everything else. He just got his licence back yesterday and put back on the insurance. He is supposed to be taking the girls to school from now on as he is not working. How can I trust him not to get pissed before taking or collecting them. He got picked up last time going to fetch them from school.  I did my damnedest in 2011 to keep my family together. Looks like it was all in vain.