First visit since 2 March I believe. That is a record. And I don't think I even have the energy to give you a glimpse of what happened tonight. But I need to tell someone. Do you know what I mean? That horrible pain in your heart like you need to scream until nothing is left, nothing more can come out. Actually I hope you don't understand. I hope you never feel like that. I don't understand what happened tonight, if I honest. Lots of banging doors though. And not by me. To find out what was going on I had a look to see if he had tweeted anything. Oh yes. 'Fcuk my Life' only spelt correctly. So the banging doors weren't because the window was open as I had been told. Got him an exchange culminating in a virtual kiss from him and hug from her. Never going to go away is it. If his life is so shit here then why doesn't he just go where he is going to be happy? Life is too short and I'm never going to be 'the one' like I apparently was in the beginning. I know I am tired. It's been an eleven hour day today as I need to meet some impossible deadlines by end of financial year and I didn't really sleep last night. That is probably why I just feel like shutting down and saying goodbye. I'm tired, no shattered. Goodnight x
Hi MDM - I just spotted this. For some reason I son't get the alerts any more when you post something. Unfortunately I do know what you mean :-( Like you said to me, you need to look after yourself. It seems to me that he wants his cake and eat it - the same as my husband. Only concern for themselves and no thinking about the impact it has on the others around them. Please take care xxx
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