I worked my socks off over the past month so I could enjoy the Easter holidays. But no I am on the sofa trying and failing to get some sleep. What did I do this time? Well the Love Of My Life was not happy, or should I say was rather angry, with something that happened in the house this evening and I, like a fool, played Devil's advocate. That ended with a 'right, that's all good then' or some such thing and I didn't get spoken to again. So I figured I may as well sleep on the sofa. Only I can't sleep can I. I'm not crying or anything. Maybe I'm too tired or I've got to the point where no matter what I'm never going to be good enough; or say or do the right things. Always, always the second class citizen in all the walks of my life. And that's not self pity there, that's just simply, unemotionally, stating a fact.
I remember a talk I attended some years ago by Richard Wiseman on how lucky people were found to make their own luck. They believed that they would be lucky and had a can do attitude and then everything worked well for them. Sadly you and I are struggling to do that at the moment. I just can't be bothered and you seem to believe that you ate not good enough :-( Do either of us deserve this ? I think not - so what can we do to change things for the better ? Always thinking about you and how you are doing. Take care xx
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