I had a revelation today, of the spiritual kind...
I am not the one responsible for the roller coasters!
And that is despite always, always getting the blame for them.
The reason, I think, I get the blame is that the OH only realises we are on a roller coaster when he hears me screaming to get off. Hence why I get the blame. But it finally dawned on me that the only reason I am screaming is because I can't cope with him when he is so consumed by drink.
If he didn't drink, I would have no need to scream. Therefore, he is one responsible for the roller coaster not me.
Time to get off the rollercoaster now ? Its been a while and I wondered how you were doing as I don't seem to get an alert when you update your posts now. I often think about how you are doing......as a fellow sufferer over the last few years even though for different reasons and with different paths x
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