Well I have been wanting to do a blog post for the last couple of weeks to record all the things I have been trying on my journey to me discovering me.
But the OH went away yesterday for a boy's night away and he has just arrived back.
He said - HE SAID - he would try not to come back as wasted as he did last time. Guess what! He is more wasted than last time and has walked in the house and now taken the dog straight out for a walk in this hot temperature. He was having to put his hand on the wall of the hall to keep himself upright.
I don't know what is worse - feeling worried or just feeling relieved he is out of the house for the moment. Poor dog. :-(
I have had an up and down day today. I am really tired due to practicing getting up at 6 to 6:30 for whole week. The wrong time of the month has just turned up today and now on top of it all I have to deal with him thinking he is being wonderful when in fact it's quite sickening.
I need to get our bed made as soon as possible in case I can convince him to go to bed. But the sheets, mattress protector, etc are on the line - not sure if they are ready to go back on yet.
I really don't need this right now. I am struggling enough at work at the moment. I had a mini breakdown at the train station on Thursday when I realised I had lost my train tickets. I remember collecting them and sitting down on the platform but when I came to get off the train they were gone. I have no idea what I did with them so distracted is my mind. The lady at the station who helped me said that I should not go into work but should go to the doctors as I was so upset and distressed. I managed to go to work and go through the day but I need to take care and not have to deal with drunk when I am struggling day to day as it is.
Better go and check the washing.
